Surprisingly

2009-10-20T08:19:00.000-07:00

Dear Wordpress,

Well.. Well.. I never in my life had though of writing about my daily life in a blog.. Felt kinda awkward now but i got many thing to tell out.. So just let words speak my heart out..

Today (20/10/2009), I went to Gold Coast again with Ivan and his gf (Sam). Although, i told myself that i need to study hard for final exam today, but yet, i decided to give myself a slack and work harder tomorrow. Hahaha, What a loser.. We drove all the way to Surfer Paradise to get some Vitamin E a.k.a sun burn on the beach... After an hours of absorbing the vitamins, we decided to go get some food because i'm kinda hungry.

As we know, there is nothing special we can eat in Gold Coast, so we ended up eating Hungry Jack.. After that, we went to TimeZone and have some fun.. We ended up playing for almost 2 hours there...

For dinner, Sam wanted to go her favourite japanese restaurant that she had been craving since the Sydney trip.. Unfortunately, the restaurant closed on Tuesday and she left with disappointment.. In the meantime, we tried to think what should we eat.. But we can't think of any and we decided head back to our Pineland to eat my favourite korean food.. Hahhaha... I love the place because it is very delicious and the marinated meat is awesome... Yummy!!..

After that, we went home and settle down.. Then *she* texted me ask me to online.. But i had a weird feeling because it had been 2 month since i had conversation with her in skype. I still remember the last time we chat, and i ended up with a heartache.. Haizz.. Well, it went smoothly in the first hour as i tried to bring in more laughter and stupid words.. Then she suddenly said she want to find another job because she want more cash for christmas.. She told me she wan to work as part time.. Then i asked, "Do you think you have enough time because from monday to friday you need to work in the morning till evening and evening you need to go to college till late at night and at time you need to church for meeting?" Then she said, " You think i'm trying to show off? What do you think i can do? Any suggestion please voice out please?".. Well, i was speechless as i know her current situation.. I'm a lil piss off on her due to her the way she reply me with those question because i was just trying to concern and ask only.. As the conversation continued for another 30 min, I decided to end the conversation because i don't want to make the conversation worst..

Then, i text her and say sorry because i ended the conversation early,, Then the replied me, " You are the only one that did not ask me when you see whether i'm really okay with all things happened when i really wish you did" Then i ask myself.. Why do you wan to ask me are you okay? Last time when i asked whether are you okay then you scolded me.. If i asked then our conversation is gona be worst again.. Haizzzz.. I really don't know why am i always in this situation.. At times, i really think i'm breathing under my neck in this relationship.. God, If you are reading this post, i pray that you can give me an answer on what should i do or give me strength to keep this relationship going as i'm really exhausted, in your name Jesus i pray, Amen....

Good night..

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Surprisingly